god damnit

i don't even know why i bother.
i went on livejournal, like, once every few months.
and the one day that i did come on
there it was.
but apparently you're only allowed on
if you know everything already
no questions asked
no questions answered
there is a comment option for a reason
i thought it was like a forum
everyone thinks so highly of themselves

DAMNIT! PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKING RUDE!

what is the point of this community
if someone just gives you a cold shoulder
and tells you to go to a flickr post?
they're at LJ already
isn't that the point of this friggin community?

yeah it is a bit annoying to hear someone say
"wait, you can use expired film?"
or
"i can't use my sx-70 because they don't make film for it anymore"
but not everybody knows that!
don't you get that?!
were you born knowing photography?
NO!
help them!

just because they weren't there at the beginning
doesn't mean they should be shunned
it's like a fucked up form of racism

AHHH!

i went to kmart today because nobody goes there anymore
and i went to the electronics section to look for some polaroid film
and i found 2 20 packs of polaroid spectra film
they don't make that anymore!!!!!
and i guess they found it in their backroom because.....
they are both terribly expired
one expired in 2007 and the other expired in 2006
but they're still useable, it'll just have a different color to it

now i just need a spectra camera that works
the one i got today doesn't smear the chemicals properly
so that sucks.


still
does anyone who isn't interested in photography have a
polaroid camera that they do not want???
money is invovled

does anyone out there have any old polaroid cameras that they have no use for?

she said that Barack could "go back to where he came from"
now i believe her when she said Barack being a democrat wasn't the only reason she hated him

i can be friends with republicans
i CAN'T be friends with red necks



oh my god, i don't blame you if you don't bless america

who knew that i'm good at art?!

not me.
definitely not me.

Hi,
I haven't been here in a while.
This week has been so so. I don't know. I'm doing fairly well in my classes. I mean, I haven't gotten any bad grades that i can remember. They aren't perfect, but I don't know.
I want to grow up.
I've been stressed with all this homework and not knowing what will happen. I also have pimples. gross.
OK.
I have class tomorrow and i'm real tired. 4 or 5 hours last night and 6 the day before. not good.
Ya know, I drew a freakin fondue pot with marshmallows on fondue stickers, a bottle of crown royale, two crooked plates and two fancy glasses (for the crown) and my prof said that wasn't creative. 9.5/12 total and i tried so hard and it looked good and i was happy with it and people in class tell me i'm good. i know i'm not the best. and my prof tells me i'm ahead of the class and i'm picking up each concept real quick and i hope those things are also taken into account for my final grade in the class because i try so hard and i'm so critical of my work in that class. i become obsessive compulsive about proportions and perspective that i made 5 18"x24" finished drawings of ONE composition, which took me all day.
and in my design concepts class we had to pick a small object and break the shading up into four colors, black dark grey light grey and white and make it out of cut paper. i made TWO and stayed up til 3:30am yesterday finishing my last one.
and in my typography class we have to make 4"x4" compositions and turn them into type. i made 28 different designs even though we only needed 6. i cut out tiny tiny little 4 point text and paste it when doing it on a computer is so much faster. and after narrowing down my 28, i could only narrow it down to 9, so i have 9 to show my professor tomorrow but she's probably going to critique me more and give me a lower grade.
my other two classes are liberal arts classes so i'm graded on tests, essays and participation. i'm not too worried about those two, but they still suck.
i love scott

byeeeeeee mg s omb
....supposed to be "omg so bomb" you get it, amy.

i'm number 14 in christine's top 16
AND
i'm probably going shopping with her and tori on saturday or sunday!
hahahaha
NEWW BESTTIESSSSSSSS!!!!!

i got into a fight with scott. it really sucked. it was my fault. i feel so shitty right now and i hate myself. can't sleep. i hate myself! fuck, i'm an idiot. i'm going to do something to make it up to him. he got into a fight with his dad right before our fight happened. i'm a bitch!

oh, and guy woke up in the hospital, but it's almost 4 am, so i can't find out why until tomorrow.

today was my last final so i decided to celebrate with a beer. that turned into 5+ hours of worrying about scott. thanks, amy, for helping out and letting scott cool down in your room. but yeah, that last final, i got a 59/70 (before essays were graded) which is an 84% & a 93% on the research paper.

i'm not drinking anymore.